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Post by hannah on Aug 11, 2011 19:11:17 GMT -5
Characters: Rename
Time: 4pm (weekend??? idk lets just pretend)
Location: Zoo
Leaning against the railing over the massive tank, Ayame rested her chin in the cold metal bar. Somehow, watching the penguins swim in their tiny little universe calmed her down. If they could be happy, confined to such a small space, then she should have to in the vast open world.
Two penguins walked near the window in a pair, waddling together happily. One tripped the other, and the one that fell bit the other, but they quickly stood back up, and continued on their way. She smiled and giggled softly, instantly reminded of Ren. They would fight, and hurt each other, and eventually get over it, but that assurance of always being together didn't exactly take the edge off the intensity during the rough patches.
Much calmer than she was when she had entered, she waved wistfully at the pair of penguins, smiling sadly, and turned back toward the exit. It was still too early to head back to the school and smother herself bed, but she was too tired to do anything else. Dragging her feet, she shoved her hands in her pockets, and rounded the corner to find the exit again.
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Post by ariana on Aug 11, 2011 19:31:51 GMT -5
Walking to random destinations, Ren was trying to find a calm and peaceful place to just... relax. After all that happened, he felt like the world was against him. Ren didn't even know why he went to the Zoo; it was filled with annoying and loud children that just wet themselves all day without even caring. Trying to forget the thought, he walked in a random direction and bumped into a short blonde girl, making her fall to the ground.
"....! Watch where you're going!" Ren retorted as he glared at her. And then he realized who she really was. Staring at her from above, Ren sighed and walked right past her, pretending it didn't happen. He went to the Zoo to forget everything that happened, and yet more trouble started to pop up.
For once, Ayame was the last person he wanted to see at the moment.
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Post by hannah on Aug 11, 2011 20:02:56 GMT -5
With her eyes downcast, she didn't even notice the person walking around the same corner. They collided, and she fell against the wall. "....! Watch where you're going!" That voice. Could it really be...? Sure enough, when she slowly lifted her head to see if the voice matched the person, she found herself face to face with Ren.
She opened her mouth to speak, but before she could utter a word, he let out a loud, interrupting sigh and walked around her. His stare was cold and quick, like the stab of a knife, and when he looked away again, it was like the knife was pulled back out. She really wasn't expecting to see him, and she definitely wasn't expecting for him to act that way.
Brushing herself off, she stood back up and watched him walk away, thinking that if she looked at him long enough, she could make him turn around. But after a few seconds, she just leaned against the wall and looked down at her feet, sick of seeing his back all the time.
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Post by ariana on Aug 11, 2011 20:20:56 GMT -5
Trying his best not to look back, random sentences that he wanted to say started to pop up in his mind, making him want to turn around and say them. Stopping in his tracks, Ren clenched his fist and looked down. Knowing that the distance between them was short, Ren tried his best to form sentences.
"...Ayame." He said in a cold voice as his back was still turned, too afraid to see her face. While he was trying to think of the other words he was going to say, he froze.
We're through.
I don't want to be with you anymore.
Let's go our separate ways and see other people.
What was the best thing to say at the moment? Ren didn't even have enough time to think this through, to him, it was all just so... sudden. And he was tired of it. He always found himself fighting with her, then apologizing to her the next day or week. Fight then make up - that was basically what their relationship was. Was this what Ren wanted?
All these things crossed his mind, completely forgetting he started a conversation with his girlfriend that he wanted to avoid for a bit longer. Shaking his head, he waited for her to reply to see if she was actually willing to talk to him.
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Post by hannah on Aug 11, 2011 20:40:06 GMT -5
Biting her lip, and staring at the cracks in the cement between her feet, Ayame listened as Ren's footsteps got farther away. At one point, they stopped completely, and the color seemed to fade out of everything, and the loud drones of mothers scolding their children and the squawks and chitters of animals seemed to mute. Why did he suddenly stop...?
"...Ayame."
The voice that now so cold, was so warm and loving just a few days ago, and the voice that she'd been longing to hear. So why did she now not want to hear it? Hesitantly, she turned her head, only to see his back again.
"Um. Yes?" she asked softly, not sure of what he'd respond with. Although, she had several ideas. If he couldn't even turn around, he probably wanted to break it off, and so she sighed and braced herself for it.
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Post by ariana on Aug 11, 2011 20:46:35 GMT -5
"Um. Yes?"
Ren cringed just by the sound of her reply. What was he going to say or do now? He braced himself and hesitantly turned around to face her so he could at least take this a bit more seriously. He avoided eye contact and put his hands in his pockets, coughing a bit. "We're through." Ren said bluntly as he started to back away. "You're not happy. I'm not happy. So let's just end this." He said with another cold tone.
Looking down and not believing he actually said those words he thought he'd never say, Ren pointed to the space behind him. "...Yeah I should get going." Ren said as he nodded awkwardly, adding on to the distance between them physically and emotionally.
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Post by hannah on Aug 11, 2011 21:15:48 GMT -5
"We're through."
He might as well have just put a knife through her chest, because that's exactly what it felt like. But instead of breaking down or crying, or doing anything that would display how much pain she was in, she smiled wide. Although, every second, the smile grew weaker and weaker.
"You're not happy. I'm not happy. So let's just end this."
Unable to make a sound, or even move or breathe, she just held the smile on her face, knowing that if she did anything else, her walls would come down, and she'd start crying. But eventually, she went from a girl trying to hide her true feelings, to a girl with tears pouring down her cheeks with a smile on her face.
"...Yeah I should get going." he said, nodding.
Finally, she took a deep breath, and as hard as she tried, the smile wouldn't return to her face. Who would she take care of, and she tell her stupid secrets, and go to the beach with now? What was she without Ren anyway?
"We were happy." she stammered, ignoring the tears falling down her cheeks. "We were so happy." She slid down the wall and covered her eyes with her palms. "Maybe Yousuke can just let you walk away, but I can't!" She wiped her eyes on the back of her arm and turned to him. "We hurt each other on a regular basis. Fighting is just as commonplace as kissing in our relationship." She smiled sadly. "I love you more than anyone in the world. And as much as I don't want you to walk away right now, I want you to be happy, so just go. If that's what you really want."
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Post by ariana on Aug 11, 2011 21:31:14 GMT -5
"Maybe Yousuke can just let you walk away, but I can't!"
Yousuke. Tch. Ren twitched as he clenched his fists, hearing that name just pissed him off more and more. "Do you actually think I enjoy fighting with you, Ayame?" Ren shouted as he rolled his eyes. She was crying again, and the last thing he wanted to see was her tears. "Ugh." Ren scratched the back of his head in frustration.
"Why do you always make this so fucking difficult for me? Do you actually think couples are supposed to fight on a daily basis? Do you actually think I enjoy feeling the things I feel when you cheat on me or do something idiotic - like calling your own boyfriend a god damn douche?"
Inhaling and exhaling slowly, Ren began to shake. Letting out his feelings and thoughts was harder then he thought it would be.
"In the beginning, I thought being with you - officially being a couple - would be something that made me happy on a regular basis. But it did the complete opposite. Ayame, I don't think we're meant to be like this. Making each other mad or sad each time we see each other - shouldn't it be the other way around?"
He glanced at her, noticing that tears were still flowing. "... I tried my best to make you happy." Ren said with a small, weak smile. "But look at you. This is what I do to you instead." He shook his head.
"There's someone else out there that will make you happy. I just don't think it's me."
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Post by hannah on Aug 11, 2011 21:53:30 GMT -5
Somewhere in the middle of his tirade, he started shaking like a wet puppy, struggling to breathe, and she noticed that she'd forgotten to breathe at all.
"... I tried my best to make you happy." he said, smiling sadly. "But look at you. This is what I do to you instead. There's someone else out there that will make you happy. I just don't think it's me."
The blood in her veins ran cold, and her jaw dropped. Are you stupid? Of course it's you. It's only ever been you. From the time we were little kids, I knew it would be you, but I guess I also knew it would have to end. Fairy tales aren't real, right? Falling in love, happily ever after, that's all in stories. You never read a thing about Cinderella fighting with her prince all the time. So why do I always find myself fighting with mine?
"You can say that if you want." she said blankly, her eyes finally drying. "But I know what being happy is, and I know that the only times I was really, honestly happy, was when I was with you. So you can stop with the explanations, I get it. I get that you're not happy, so let's just stop talking about it."
She stood up awkwardly, her legs still numb, and stared past Ren at the two penguins that she'd seen walking together before. But they weren't walking at each other's sides anymore; they were apart, going their own separate ways. She smiled sadly at the separated penguins in their tiny terrarium world and brought herself to look Ren in the eyes. "I love you." she whispered, and turned around, heading for the exit, just as she would have had she not run into him in the first place.
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Post by ariana on Aug 11, 2011 23:24:48 GMT -5
As much as those words hurt, Ren decided to just let them go. Even if he did make her happy, it was only for a short period of time. He knew that he ruined that happiness as soon as he could, and knowing that he hurt someone that meant the most to him made him feel worse every day - and it was a burden that he didn't want to carry anymore.
As Ayame whispered "I love you", Ren stood there as he watched her walk away, hoping that this obstacle would help him grow stronger in many ways. He knew it was for the best, and Ayame should realize that too. "..I know. Bye, Ayame." Ren muttered as he waved awkwardly, not sure what just happened.
Sighing, Ren headed the opposite direction of where Ayame was going and tried to move on immediately. Moving on to different thoughts, and soon, they'd be seeing different people. Trying to convince himself that Ayame was just a regular girl, Ren shrugged it off. "She's just another girl, Ren. No need to get upset." He kept repeating to himself as he kept walking to see a couple of penguins.
[wow this was horrible oh well okay the end happily ever after etc]
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