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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 13:47:15 GMT -5
Characters: Rename
Time: 7AM
Location: Hallway
Exhaling deeply, Ayame leaned against the door of the locked classroom. Normally, she wouldn't be this early to class, especially not on a Monday, but she'd been sleeping at such odd times lately that the time she got up could range anywhere from 3AM to just not sleeping at all. She'd never say out loud that she missed Ren, but he managed to stay on her mind for much of her waking hours, even in her dreams. However, they were not always troubling thoughts. Mostly a few memories from years ago, but there were times when she thought of things she should have said instead, and those were the times that she didn't sleep.
She craned her neck to look around the hall, which was still completely empty, and would be for at least another hour. The deep oceanic blue of the halls suddenly looked murky and tenebrous, like if she leaned long enough, she'd sink into them. Closing her eyes, she furrowed her eyebrows, regretting not staying in bed for another hour.
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 13:56:48 GMT -5
Drinking too much coffee late at night wasn't such a good idea, but Ren couldn't care less. What did he have to lose? He never goes to class - he's probably failing all of them, he lost his girlfriend, his best friend - his life seriously couldn't get any worse. Thinking negatively while strolling down the empty halls, he saw a blonde hair girl in pig tails leaning against the wall. Ren stood there quietly as he squinted his eyes, making sure it wasn't her. Ren has completely avoided all blonde girls recently, not taking the chance that it might be Ayame. But with his luck right now, that probably was his ex-girlfriend... and it was.
Already too close to turn around and pretend it didn't happen, Ren cleared his throat as he turned a bit red. Covering his mouth with his fist, he at least hoped she would notice he was standing there. "...Ahem." Ren said a bit louder this time, trying to avoid eye contact.
Breaking the very thick ice with a simple, "...Hey..." Ren stared at the ground. Being surrounded by this awkward feeling was something Ren disliked more than he disliked Sora - and that's a lot.
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 15:33:57 GMT -5
As footsteps neared, and suddenly stopped, her eyes fluttered, but didn't open. If it was just another student, it would be easier to just pretend to not notice them, and let them go on with whatever they happened to be doing before classes. But after a few seconds, the person didn't move, instead letting out a soft cough. Maybe a sick kid looking for the nurse's office?
"...Ahem."
Her eyes opened slowly, and she turned her head to face none other than Ren. As much as she'd thought about him lately, now that he was actually in front of her, actually acknowledging her existence, she had no idea what to do but stare blankly, and wait for him to say something.
"...Hey..." he murmured, now unable to look at her.
Ayame raised an eyebrow. So now he wanted to be friends again? She was annoyed, but she played along. "Hey." she echoed, crossing her arms and looking away. "What are you doing up? Classes don't start for over an hour."
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 17:21:27 GMT -5
Seeing how cold Ayame was acting towards him, Ren mentally sighed. "So she's still angry..." Ren thought to himself as he slightly shook his head, not knowing what to do now. He could tell she was annoyed, but who wouldn't be with the current situation they were in?
"What are you doing up? Classes don't start for over an hour."
Surprised that she actually replied to him - Ren jumped a little. "I haven't exactly slept yet.." He said in an awkward tone. "If you don't want me here I can just go." Ren said as he pointed to the opposite direction of the hallway. He didn't want to go. He wanted to stay there right infront of her, so they could talk everything out - so they could at least be friends again. Even if she was 'seeing' Sora, he needed to put that behind him because Ayame was his best friend before she was his girl friend. He needed to keep that in mind, and with that Ren put on an awkward smirk.
"I..." He sighed in between his words, "I'm sorry if I'm making you feel awkward."
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 18:00:21 GMT -5
"I haven't exactly slept yet.." he stammered, his face turning red. So he hadn't slept either. Before she could ask why, he interrupted. "If you don't want me here I can just go."
His behavior was more than unexpected. Ren always looked so confident and self-assured; this blushing and mumbling was rather out of character. The knots in her stomach loosened, and she smiled benevolently.
She shook her head calmly, not changing her expression. "No, don't." she said listlessly. "We've been avoiding each other long enough, don't you think? So I'll be completely honest with you and say that..." Her voice trailed off for a few seconds, as she searched for the right words. The corners of her mouth twitched, like she wasn't sure if she should stop there or actually say what she wanted to. Deciding that she was done keeping quiet, she pushed away from the wall and looked at him head on. "I... miss you." she uttered, the pink in her cheeks matching his.
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 18:09:40 GMT -5
"I... miss you."
Ren couldn't control his facial expressions - he didn't know what was going on. Was it the lack of sleep? He's gone days without sleep before - so why is he acting like this? His face a bright shade of red, Ren covered half of his face with his hand. "...U-uh.." He said as he quickly turned away. What has gotten into him? "...I miss you too, Ayame." Not sure if he was actually allowed to say those words, he sighed.
Shaking off this mood, Ren's face turned to it's normal color - "So how are you and..." He cringed as he said his name - "..Sora.." Assuming right away that they've been dating or seeing each other - He was upsetting himself. "I've heard some rumours that.. you're seeing him now." He said in a more defined and bold tone this time.
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 18:21:56 GMT -5
"...I miss you too, Ayame."
She gasped quietly, not sure if she'd heard him correctly. Judging by the way he way he acted when they bumped into each other at the zoo, she wasn't expecting him to be blushing like a little schoolgirl. The tension had broken a bit, but there was still an ominous feeling, and she was a bit afraid to get any closer to him.
"So how are you and..." He cringed, as if it physically hurt to finish the question "..Sora.." Sora? Sure she'd talked to him about some things right after Ren broke things off, but it never went in the direction he was thinking of. "I've heard some rumours that.. you're seeing him now."
"Ren, I think you have the wrong idea." she corrected, looking at him curiously. "I talked to Sora about some things, but... that's it." She sighed, wondering how he even knew what she was up to without even speaking. "I don't think I'd really be able to see anyone else anyways." she added nonchalantly.
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 18:27:11 GMT -5
".......Talked......" Ren said in a pretty angry tone as he stared at her - feeling possessive and jealous all over again. "Talked about what." He said more sternly - his angry side taking over this time. "..I thought I told that faggot to stay away from you." He muttered as he looked away, hoping she didn't hear that. But all he felt that second vanished as soon she said, "I don't think I'd really be able to see anyone else anyways."
Ren's eyes brightened up a bit - "...Good." He said bluntly but coughed immediately after those rude words slipped out. "I mean.. Why not..?" He added quickly as his fist was covering his mouth again.
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 18:42:23 GMT -5
"Talked about what." he demanded, the blush fading, and a look of concern taking its place.
Suppressing a laugh, she rolled her eyes and smiled again. "Just talked, Dad." she answered. "No, we just talked about things that have happened recently. If anyone told you it was anything more than that, it was obviously just to bother you."
"...Good." he replied, sounding self-satisfied. As vulnerable as he let himself look, he still managed to let his cockiness bleed through. "I mean.. Why not..?" he asked, covering his face again.
She chuckled to herself before trying to come up with an answer, enjoying this side of Ren. Normally, he was so cold and annoyed, but now he was even more delicate than the night he got wasted.
"Because..." She slowly started walking towards him with her hands linked behind her back. "you can't just stop loving someone. And I'm not exception." she finished calmly, fighting a smile.
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 18:50:28 GMT -5
"you can't just stop loving someone. And I'm not exception."
Ren's eyes widened - Love. Love. Ayame loves him. Such a big word came out of Ayame's mouth, and Ren didn't know what to do about it. "...Love?" He repeated, surprised. Shaking his head, Ren started to laugh a bit. "Woah, love is a big word, Ayame." He said as he backed away a bit. "Are you sure youlove me?" He asked again, not believing what he was hearing. "After all I put you through? After all the tears you shed because of me...?" He kept going and going, and before he knew it he started to panic. Ayame has said she loved him before - but he never thought she actually meant it. And for some reason, the way she said it now... he could feel how serious she was being. Ren shook his head, "I think you've got this all wrong." He said bluntly.
Even though they had mutual feelings about each other, Ren couldn't accept the fact that he actually meant something to someone. He actually had value in someone's life. This was all too new for him, and Ren didn't know how to take it.
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 19:07:40 GMT -5
"Woah, love is a big word, Ayame." He said as he backed away a bit. "Are you sure you love me?" He asked again. "After all I put you through? After all the tears you shed because of me...?"
She looked up, thinking it over for a few seconds. Well, she wasn't too sure herself, but if he could do everything he said he did, and she'd still want to be around him, then it fit.
"I think you've got this all wrong." he added, starting to look even more uncomfortable.
"I don't really know..." she hummed, her smile not fading. She really had no hesitations, and no second thoughts. "Nope, never mind." she decided, shaking her head. "I'm pretty sure I love you." She stopped moving and stood a few feet in front of him, and dulled her expression. "From the first day we met again, and we just ended up fighting, I had this bubbling feeling in my chest when I was around you. I wasn't sure if I was just happy to see you again, or what, but when I realized I didn't feel it around Yousuke, I knew how it was right away. So even if you don't feel the same way anymore, or if you just completely hate me, I love you."
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 19:19:19 GMT -5
"I love you."
There it was again - those words he's been longing to hear from somebody for so many years. But some how, Ren didn't feel... happy. Ren furrowed his eyebrows as he put on a weak smile - "Didn't I make it clear the day at the zoo..?" He said as hesitantly patted her on the head, not sure what else to do. "I don't think I'm the... right one." His weak smile almost gone, Ren looked down sadly. "I don't think I can make you happy." He added as he sighed,
"I don't think I deserve you."
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 19:34:52 GMT -5
"Didn't I make it clear the day at the zoo..?" he asked, patting her head. "I don't think I'm the... right one." Oh god, no. Not that sad smile again. "I don't think I can make you happy. I don't think I deserve you."
Slapping his hand away, frustrated, she glared up at him. "Why don't you get it?" she asked faintly, dropping her shoulders. "You do make me happy. Besides, I never suggested we get back together, I just said I loved you." she said, looking away. "I should have just stayed in bed today." she muttered under her breath, unsure of how many times she could take his diversions.
"I'm going back to bed." she sighed, biting her lip. "I'll see you around then, I guess."
Deep down, she obviously wanted to be with him, and she wanted things to be normal, and she wanted Yousuke and Ren to get along again, but for now, just being able to talk was enough. Still, she was worried. He seemed to be pushing her away for some reason she didn't see, or more, just didn't want to face. Maybe what he said in the Ferris Wheel that day was just one of those things people say without thinking, and that everything that happened from then to now was for nothing. Even if that was the case, if she was given the chance to go back and time to change things, she wouldn't.
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Post by ariana on Aug 23, 2011 19:51:02 GMT -5
Ren stared at the ground while she corrected him, Ren just.. stood there. Usually he would argue back, and a huge fight would break out - but this time, Ren was just taking it. Because he knew no matter what he said, he knew that he couldn't make her as happy as Sora could. Or all the other nice boys out there in Aozora. No matter what she said that told him otherwise, the only thought that stuck to Ren's mind was the fact that he was worthless. His insecurities kept him from being truly happy - and being too blind to see that, each step Ayame took tore his heart to pieces.
Without knowing it, Ren unconsciously grabbed her hand - stopping her from taking another step before tears came out of his eyes. "...Ayame don't be like this." He said as he grabbed her hand tightly, putting warmth into his cold hands. "Do you know how hard it is for me..?" He looked up at her, grabbing both her hands now. "How hard it is for me to stay away from you? How hard it is for me to not be jealous of every guy that comes near you?" Putting her hands against his lips, Ren closed his eyes.
"How hard it is for me to restrain myself from kissing you..." Accidentally saying everything that was on his mind, Ren didn't care. She had to know how he felt sooner or later.
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Post by hannah on Aug 23, 2011 20:27:03 GMT -5
Suddenly, he grabbed her hand. Tears were coming to her eyes, but she didn't feel like crying, and her legs were shaking, but she wasn't nervous, and the bubbling feeling returned, stronger than it had ever been before.
"...Ayame don't be like this."
She closed her eyes tightly, grinding her teeth. How could she look at him now? Where else could she hide? "Do you know how hard it is for me..?" he asked, taking both of her hands. She opened one eye, and saw that he was looking at her, really looking, for the first time in a long time. "How hard it is for me to stay away from you? How hard it is for me to not be jealous of every guy that comes near you?"
Something was different about him now. It wasn't really physical. His face, his hands, his voice; they hadn't changed at all, but somehow it felt like she was looking at someone she didn't know.
"How hard it is for me to restrain myself from kissing you..."
Everything was happening faster than she thought it could, but that wasn't anything new. Things with those two seemed to move at such irregular paces that she was prepared for pretty much anything. Regardless, there was no preparing for this. Without thinking, just as he was, she stepped as close as she could to him, and when she was sure he wouldn't open his eyes, she lightly touched her lips to his, scared and happy at the same time.
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